Catatonic

So I've been thinking...

maybe i should move to Hawaii in the future and live the simple life

where you go to the market that sells fruit outside and shop with a basket.

and just sit on the beach and watch the waves all day then witness the sunset

FINSK

i really would like to experience this someday

if i have to be perfectly honest...

i dont know how to feel anymore. has all been thrown away?
should i feel hurt? should i feel comfortable? should i feel apathetic? should i feel dignified? independent? selfish? lonely? sad? angry? bitter? jealous? happy?

the truth is, i feel none of that.
emotions gone haywire.

be as

classy and genuine

gosh

i hope someday me and another would be able to settle and have authentic food at authentic food joints

i like this

 

i love Alexander Wang

you must think im stupid

but im young

SLEIGH BELLS RING ARE YOU LISTENING?

big city dreams

i want to live in Vancouver or LA or SF or BOSTON
i want the city life.

PROS AND CONS

Bio vs. Behavioral/ Social Science Degree

PROS for Bio:
Can become an optometrist faster
graduate school area: Back bay Boston..AMAZING
highly demanded profession
earns a lot of money
highly respected profession
graduate schools last 4 years of study
options to travel and practice abroad

CONS:
A LOT of prerequisites have to be done in undergrad school
TOO MUCH MONEY: cost of education, travel, living

If i study Behavioral Sciences:
can become a professional in Human Resources for a company etc
STILL can go to graduate school
earns good amount of money
high demand for profession
studies can be done in 4 years
do not need graduate school
OVERALL CHEAPER education/studies wise
TRAVEL THE WORLD

this is such a hard decision because they are both very distinct professions,
one involves MEDICAL and the other HUMANITIES
and i am passionate about both.
plus, as of now i am attending a UC which is a great opportunity, yet it is very so costly...
i feel like i can achieve anything and  become successful anywhere but if i choose one, one will require giving up going to a UC...

this is a hard decision and once my freshman year of college is over, the decision will have to be made...
any words of enlightment? message me on facebook or call me..anything! this is all i have been thinking about lately